Dear X-<something>
So, this completes the full 4 years of knowing you, from fondness to obsession and from obsession to nothing...now!
Honestly, I am not sure of this revolution but things have changed and ‘You're’ to be held responsible. Probably, we often want it so badly that we ruin it before it begins...Over-thinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. And what not so I may at fault too but guess m convinced 'now' it's never worth it.
Your I-am-so-intelligent-and-most-eligible-bachelor tag may have got something to do with it too but 'O my dear Darling' it doesn't matter ‘now’.
You know, I still remember my cloud nine feeling when you'd first helped with getting around in the shuttle and I laid my eyes on you for the first time. Ecstasy was at its best and 'O my dear Darling' I was flying and yes flying like really high and declared victory the moment you'd accepted my friend request on FB (silly me!!); it was Thursday and date 10th Jan'13 and my heart raced and skipped the beat, and, you shot me dead later the very moment you'd shared adding seeing same organization name (holy shit who does that? and on FB?).
Butterflies rose zillion times we exchanged gestures at work in your 2 years of tenure in the same city and finally I vomited everything (I still regret it) and you rejected it out rightly (as expected) saying we-are-so-fucking-friends (of course on FB) and nothing else. No whining but I feel had vested so much of interest into the whole of it that eventually when my fondness rose to obsession and luckily to nothing 'now' I died emotionally but mentally became strong. Everybody has some those so painfully honest friends and I have my share too but I never listened and overlooked everybody else but not you. Honey, you robbed my self-consciousness and eventually my self-ego but I never flinched and continued to pursue 'You'. If only time can tell then nobody must have worshiped you like I did.
Thinking on feet I realize now how 'awkwardly' stupid whole of this is and I with fainted heart still survived ...maybe coz I had to see fall of a dynasty and move on. No regrets 'Sweety' but trust me time is a teacher and I've had my lessons and 'maybe' you already have yours. And, it’s all good coz I got the better version of myself just coz of you and I’m thankful for it.
So, time to bid adieu to you n memories have come and you know what? I'm very happy about it. Period.
Yours (Never)
Who wanna give a damn?
