I Dont Wanna.....

I don’t wanna miss him
I don’t wanna cry for him
I don’t wanna long to hear from him
I don’t wanna crib for things that has set us apart
I don’t wanna raise discomfort about we not talking
I don’t wanna crave for our silly conversations again


I don’t wanna talk about the discontentment of not seeing him ever again
I don’t wanna itch for the things that naïvely went wrong between us
I don’t wanna admit I read old conversations all over again n again
I don’t wanna appear feeble without his company
I don’t wanna curse myself anymore for not holding the relation iron tight
I don’t wanna hide the scars on my heart due to unexpected and awful loss

I don’t wanna sulk anymore about the fact he didn’t give me the last chance
I don’t wanna lie to myself anymore as all the things have happened for good
I don’t wanna stoop this low coz of dissimilarities between us
I don’t wanna mischief myself for not trying again
I don’t wanna face the shift of Somebody to Nobody 
I don’t wanna die in the guilt of living life of a looser

But in all this I have realised that nothing gonna change the fact
And I have lost ma favorite star
A shoulder to cry on
A friend for life
Alas Nothing can make things right as before
No overhaul is well thought-out
We have moved sheepishly
Coz in the end regrets or mistakes, they're all memories made
But I don’t wanna accept it…….NOW!!